The Vent Thread

[__molii ★]

I'm sorry for expressing what I felt.

[haley.]

If you see this, and when/if you see it, you'll freak out and know it's about you, know that I love you.
but goddamn
why are you so annoying?
UM. I DON'T CARE IF THIS IS HYPOCRITICAL OR ANYTHING, BUT I'M KINDA GONNA... LIKE WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT TO LIKE. WHEN I MADE THAT JOURNAL SAYING I DISLIKED CANON AND EVERYTHING, DID I SAY, AND ALL OF YOU FUCKERS NEED TO HATE IT OR I'M BLOCKING YOU ALL
This is why I don't like talking about Fandom with you. You know, really, Hetalia is my MAIN FANDOM AT THE MOMENT. I realize we still do lots of Soul Eater shit and maybe even the occasional Vocaloid, but really, right now, Hetalia is my main thing. So yeah, you being a really close person to me, if I find something funny about my fandom, I'd like to be able to laugh about it with you.
And we've gotten somewhere! You don't accept it as a fandom of your own, but you... technically, we've RP'd it. That's something. We have jokes and laughs FROM hetalia. and i'm glad.
But really, would you just PLEASE get off your high horse and realize that you are not the most witty person ever?
Yeah, I talk about how mellow I am a lot, but only because when you talk it almost sounds like you forget about that.
You have low self-esteem in some ways, but I refuse to believe you are not egotistical about SOME things.
Yes, you have fanfiction of your fanfiction. LOL AND THEN YOU GET TO MOCK IT. HALEY, ISN'T THAT GREAT?
Actually, yeah! be my guest! /explains why mocking isn't my thing. Uh, but I'll still read it! Just like how I read your Soul/Maka stuff when that pairing kinda bores me. Cuz I like you. c:
But you like OTHER canon pairings. BUT MAYBE THAT'S JUST MUST ME BE BECAUSE I AM SO CALM AND COLLECTED AND MATURE
...kay. /lost interest.

You probably won't read this. I'm holding nothing against you. I JUST NEEDED TO VENT.
Yeah, I'm saying I don't like Soul/Maka. I'M NOT ASKING YOU TO LIKE MY HETALIA-PAIRINGS. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH PAIRINGS?
Canon is such serious business - i have to respect the creators!!!1!eleven
I don't... I don't CARE. I'm not DISrespecting them.

And don't you DARE act like you did NOT call me a stupid 15 year old girl, because you did. You called me unoriginal - you stuck your foot on your mouth like you do sometimes.
I write my AU's because I feel like it. even if you don't like it, other people do. I never asked you to like it. I NEVER ASKED YOU TO READ IT OR ANYTHING, SO WHY ARE YOU BITCHING ABOUT IT? I find writing AU's more interesting SOMETIMES then writing original stories - which I have written before, I just don't post them up because I DON'T HAVE TO.

GahhhujoresrujISe;k fuck you i kind of hope you don't read this but you probably won't because THIS SITE IS TOO IMMATURE FOR YOU, YOU LIKE PROJECT AFTER WHERE THEY ARE WITTY AND THEY MOCK THINGS AND AND AND

oh shut up.

[haley.]

...oh my god

you know i try and read everything you do

...why would you ever...

...oh my god

[JustBethan]

Jaded told me to be more active.

So mine first coat of buisnes is to whine and moan.

I really hate art lessons it sucks big balls.
Mine art teacher hates mine guts I can't even figgure out why, and she finds some reason to yell at me, if I did anythign the exsact same way she told me to after I did soemthing she'd of told me off.
She burns me up and I hate it so much that I want to quit because it gives me so much anger stress and depression issues that I end up bunking off school and runnign away form home for a week, but if I don't do art mine future is down the drain and mine dreams are crushed. Art WAS the only subject giving me confidence that I wouldn't ruin mine life and she just ripps that all up!

[habu]

<sup>OK. I'm sorry for what I am about to say, but URRGH.

SHUT. THE FUCK. UP.

STOP BUGGING ME AND WHINING AND BITCHING. I AM OBVIOUSLY BUSY SO GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO TALK TO. I'm not ANY BETTER a conversationalist and not a great multi-tasker so please just SHUT. UP.</sup>

[✠Kim✝]

Okay, Habu.
You already said you were sorry and we talked about it, but I'm stilled pissed.
First off, How am I supposed to know when your busy when you don't tell me? Yeah sometimes you tell me your busy and that's when I don't talk to you. But when you don't tell me that I think your ignoring me, okay? And when people ignore me I tend to get annoying. YOU SHOULD HAVE JUST TOLD ME I WAS GETTING ANNOYING INSTEAD OF VENTING ABOUT IT. It's not like I'm stupid and couldn't tell who you vented about.
Secondly, you told me to say your name instead of putting little faces. So that's what I did. I said your name over and over again.
And lastly, I wasn't bitching or whining. I WAS JUST SAYING YOUR NAME LIKE YOU TOLD ME TO. Okay, sometimes I do talk to you when I'm upset and I complain but I only talk to you when I'm upset because I thought you could cheer me up.
Also I am talking to other people when I talk to you. It's just we don't have a lot of conversations and that gets me really upset because I love you so much and all I want to do is talk to you. And now I'm afraid to even talk to you cause I might get you mad again.

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I don't ask for much. AND THE ONE THING I'M ASKING FOR RIGHT NOW YOU GUYS CAN'T EVEN DO FOR ME. WHAT. THE. FUCK.

[✠Kim✝]

Im sorry if im annoying
Im sorry Im confused
Im sorry if Im rude
Im sorry if I do things you don't like
Im sorry if I make you feel bad
Im sorry if I don't live up to your standards as a proper person
Im sorry I am who I am
Im sorry things always go wrong
Im sorry its most likely my fault
Im sorry I fight for no reason
Im sorry I start fights with others
Im sorry im not around when I'm wanted
Im sorry im around when I'm not wanted
Im sorry that I don't ever want to be ignored
Im sorry I waste your time
Im sorry if im boring
Im sorry Im weird
Im sorry Im a dork
Im sorry I repeat myself just to get your attention
Im sorry Im a loser
Im sorry I whine
Im sorry Im depressed
Im sorry I love you
Im sorry if you dislike me
Im sorry I hate being neglected
Im sorry I cry my eyes out over you
I'M SORRY I'M USELESS AND CAN'T DO ANYTHING FUCKING RIGHT.

[haley.]

I have never seen someone so blind
as to how another person completely loves them.

I cannot help you with a majority of your problems.
I can only sit here and hope all goes well.
You do not need to apologize anymore.

It's OK.

[haley.]

would you just tell me when you're upset?
would you just tell me what's bothering you?
I can't HELP YOU if I don't KNOW and you have to TELL ME



i'm getting sick and tired of repeating myself when you already KNOW how much I love you and care about you and just want to help and...

when you are upset
you have no idea how it makes me upset.

[habu]

^{Why can't I have real, attainable hopes and dreams?}


I miss you. You understood.

[haley.]

oh my god.
oh my god.
just
just people.

[✠Kim✝]

I ruin everything.
I hurt everyone.

[haley.]

Why do I have to wait so long?

WHY ISN'T SHE JUST SITTING HERE NEXT TO ME?

WHY CAN'T I DEFINE MY FEELINGS FOR HER?

[/u]

^{Why is that everytime I'm upset I think about how much I miss her? Like it helps me at all...}[/center]

[✠Kim✝]

Oh god.
I miss you.
You don't talk to me anymore just because I'm out of my "sonic" addiction. Just because I moved on. You were my first watcher my first friend from DA. One of my best friends. I miss you so much. I always tell you that.. but you never reply. I miss all the gifts we made for each other, our jokes and our little group we had of our FC's.. Colleen, Ion, Angel/Hallie, Shada, and Zet. But now Ion is gone. Hallie wont talk to me. Me and Zet got into a fight. Shada is the only one who keeps in contact with me and shes never on. Uff..
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As soon as she comes I'm ignored. I'm fucking sick of this okay? JUST SICK OF IT. You have no idea how much it hurts me and how angry I get.
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Seeing you like this makes me want to cry. And I did. :c
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TALK TO ME GODDAMMIT. FUCKING TALK TO ME. STOP IGNORING ME. JUST STOP IT. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE BEING IGNORED. I SAID IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN. DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND OR DO YOU JUST DON'T CARE?

I HATE PEOPLE.

[✠Kim✝]

OH MY GOD WILL YOU STOP DOING THIS TO ME?! SERIOUSLY. THIS IS MY SECOND TIME VENTING ABOUT IT TODAY. What do I ask? ONE LITTLE THING. Just ONE. IS THAT REALLY HARD. YEAH WE BOTH DON'T NOW HOW TO DO IT BUT WE CAN AT LEAST TRY. AND I DO KEEP TRYING BUT YOU'RE NOT. FUCK.