The Vent Thread

[✠Kim✝]

FUCK YOU MOM. THIS IS MY CANDY.

I ACTUALLY GOT OFF MY ASS AND WALKED AROUND FOR 8 HOURS GETTING THE CANDY.

WHAT DID YOU DO?

YOU SAT ON YOUR ASS AND SMOKED CANCER STICKS ALL DAY EVEN THOUGH YOU PROMISED ME YOU WOULD QUICK SMOKING FOUR YEARS AGO.

AND WHY DO YOU HAVE TO TAKE ALL MY CANDY?
WHY CAN'T YOU TAKE SOME OF ASHLEY'S?

IF YOU WANTED CANDY SO BAD YOU SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN IT YOURSELF.

SO I WOULD LIKE IT IF I CAN HAVE ALL MY CANDY TO MYSELF.
KTHXBYE
*hides candy under bed*

>:U

[✠Kim✝]

I'm sorry but..
When I say your art is cute or funny I do mean it..
it's just.. the way you draw 'them' over and over again..
I'm starting to feel...
never mind..
I really don't want you to get mad at me..

_________
Okay seriously!
LEAVE ME ALONE.
It was MY opinion and you should respect that like I respected yours.
JUST BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE THE SAME CHARACTERS AS YOU, DOESN'T MEAN I'M A BITCH.
YOU'RE THE BITCH.
GOD. I hate people like that.

I'm so stupid. I get mad over stupid retarded things that no one cares about.
I don't even know WHY I vent. It just makes me feel worse. D:<
|:c
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EDIT:
Oh god.. I feel horrible right now.
I was in the middle of drawing something.. then I randomly got all depressed.
That's how much I hate my art.
I can't even look at it without getting upset or telling myself I'm a horrible artist.
Sometimes I even tell myself that I should just stop drawing.. But I don't want to stop drawing.
I want to improve.
BUT I JUST CAN'T.
THE MORE I DRAW THE MORE I HATE MY ART.
Also... I feel so lonely right now.
I don't know why but I do..
___
WHY THE FUCK AM I SO JEALOUS?
I REALLY HATE THE FEELING OF JEALOUSY.
LIKE A LOT.
BUT FUCK I HAVE TO SEE 'IT' EVERYDAY, SO OF COURSE I'M JEALOUS.

[habu]

I'M NOT FUCKING STUPID. I'M NOT. I HAVE A BRAIN AND I THINK I USE IT MORE THAN THE REST OF YOU FUCKING ASSES.

STOP SHOUTING OUT "FAIL." I DO IT CUZ I THINK IT'S FUNNY, and then you think I do it because I'm really stupid, and then, when I actually do get something wrong that I didn't actually fucking MEAN TOO you fucking LAUGH IN MY FACE.


It hurts.


I'm not stupid.




^{.....I'm not....}

[✠Kim✝]

Haley..
I know it's my fault I made you feel that way.
I'm sorry I ruined your mood.
I know I'm fucking emotional. KEI?
But that's just the way I am and I can't help it.
I MEAN LIKE I TRY TO BE HAPPY. I REALLY FUCKING TRY.
And if you like... honestly don't want to talk to me or... be my friend or if you're mad at me.. just tell me. And... can you maybe tell me what I have to change about myself?
I'm sorry..
Maybe I should just leave you alone.
I don't fucking know.
I'm a terrible person. I read that journal you wrote about me when you 'hacked' my account. I bet by now you don't mean it anymore.
Gahhhdhsgzjdzluj,luvj. I'm sorry.

[✠Kim✝]

My mom is drunk again.
Fuck.
She is the biggest liar ever.
I can't even trust her anymore.
Whenever she gets like this I get depressed and it's not fair.
I have no one to comfort me or give me a hug.
D:
My sister isn't even home to make me laugh.
The only person who is home is me and my mom.
I'm scared and I feel lonely.
I need help.

[haley.]

...
i'm actually shocked that i'm jealous over this.

It makes kind of... depressed.
i can't believe i just... want you to love me most of all.
there are other people...
I don't know how to express that i love you like i do...
but they all draw you things all the time... they all have so many jokes with you...

it isn't enough
i can't tell you amazing you are.
how strong you are.
no matter how much you hate yourself, please remember that you're... so great, and you deserve so much more.

you say you want this and that from me.
that you miss me.
i don't know how to give it to you without feeling awkward... because so many other people give it to you.
i miss you more.
you love me?
i love you more.

you go through so much ever day, and when i vent it's so... it's over shit so trivial.
one day, i'll be strong enough for you.



i can't even type your name
i feel scared
and weak
and pitiful

[haley.]

OK
LISTEN TO ME

YOU ARE NOT NEEDY OR EMOTIONAL OR ANYTHING
YOU... Yes, you get can get emotional, I admit.
Right now I feel so bad for all the times I know I've neglected you.

It seems like I mean a lot to you...
It makes me feel amazing.
I want to be
right fucking next to you and wrap my arms around you and make all the bad things go away

I JUST VENTED ABOUT THIS WHY AM I DOING IT AGAIN

i want to make a compromise with you so bad.
but it feels like I'm forgetting about Bailey the more I think about you.
I love Bailey... In such a special way.
I love YOU in a particular way... You both... you both have certain spots in my heart.

why is this making me feel so... utterly terrible.
you NEVER neglect me.
I neglect you all the time.

you just... you get everything
and i do want to be so much closer to you
i want to call you
i want people to know you're closest to me than anyone else
but i'm scared that you'll go away like bailey did.



It's so...
I cannot even begin to express how terrible it is
...when someone you love that much just... disappears.

and i cannot stand to let it happen again
i can't
i can't
i'm so scared

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[haley.]

OH MY GOD WHY WON'T YOU...
UGH

[habu]

I'm so sick of being scared all the time.



WHEN WILL THINGS GO BACK TO NORMAL?

[haley.]

that's so... UUUGGHGHNNN
I mean... I'M TRYING To be nice! And Thoughtful!
I've just had some hard times recently!
You act like i DON'T devote myself to you entirely!
EVERYTIME THIS HAPPENS... YOU DO THE SAME THING
AND I FREAK OUT ON THE INSIDE
AND YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M THE BIG, SELFISH BAD GUY

don't... DO THAT to me!
IT SCARES ME

[✠Kim✝]

I'm really upset.
Yeah.
I'm worried.
I'm really jealous right now.
I've got a really bad headache.

My mom is acting weird and everyone in my house is fighting.
My mom just told me I have problems and that I don't know what a joke is.
SHE WAS MAKING FUN OF ME. I think I know the difference.


I don't have school tomorrow. I wish I did. I want to get out of my house.

I'm getting sick again.

fml
|:c

okayokayokay. CAN YOU STOP MENTIONING HER NAME FOR 10 FUCKING MINUTES? PLEASE?

[✠Kim✝]

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I'm always sad.
I don't want to be sad. I really don't. I hate the feeling.
Sometimes I am sad over nothing.
I hate this.
I have no idea how you guys put up with it.
Sometimes I wonder why you guys love me like you do.

I want to leave my house. But I can't
I hate all this fighting that goes on every single day
I want it to stop. I want things to be the way they used to be.
But I know thats not gonna happen.

Actually I just want to leave everything. But then I'd be a liar.
I don't like lying... and if I left I would miss you guys.
I would miss you a lot.
So I can't leave.
I can't ever leave and I won't ever leave.
_{I promise.}

FUUUCK WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

I suck.

Hopefully this will be my last vent for awhile.

[haley.]

i'm being obsessive.
i seem to be really good at that.

but i can't help it.
it's just
uurrgghhhh.

[habu]

<sup>Am I dying? Am I OK?

Is this normal? Am I going to live to see tommorow?

Is my throat dryer? are my hands heavier? Is my heart beating?

Am I dead?</sup>

HOLY FUCKING SHIT I HATE BEING A HYPOCHONDRIAC.

[✠Kim✝]

So.. you told me you were sorry..
Didn't I tell you I stalk your comments?
Cause I do and you know that.
And yet you still talk about it even though you know it hurts me.
And now you are obsessing over..... And your probably going to obsess more after...... uhhhg.
I understand your excited but.. seriously.. it's fucking annoying, you guys.. just stop it or talk about it somewhere else where I can't read it.
That would be really nice.
Thanks..
And no.. I'm not mad.. just.. blah..