The Vent Thread

[haley.]

|:c

one of these days
if you don't already
you're going to think i'm some creepy lesbian fuck who just wants you to herself
i feel so self-conscious that just because i fell in love with a girl, everyone thinks that. so when people ask 'who's bailey?' i just... get uncomfortable. for a lot of reasons.

i do love you, more than i love i whole lot of people, but... ffffffff, i hate being paranoid.

[✠Kim✝]

I asked you nicely to stop.
I told you how it made us feel.
The feelings weren't good feelings.
Do you not care about our feelings or something?
Maybe you laughed about it. But you have to realize there are other people and it makes them feel... I don't know.
Please keep it to yourself.
_<:c

xxx

_{If I do it, you get mad at me. If she does it, you like it.
|:c}

xxx

~You can't always get what you want~

.....
I was going to vent more. But I have to stop or else I'll blow up.
FYI, THESE ARE LIKE SUPER OLD VENTS I'VE BEEN WANTING TO VENT ABOUT BUT I NEVER DID, AND I HAD TO GET IT OUT.

[haley.]

i do not
FUCKING
care.

that's really mean, i know. but i'm tired of not getting to be mean. i'll deal with this one step at a goddamn time, and dammit, i'm not in the mood to be chastised for neglecting people.

one day i am going to explode and blow up at you and distance myself from you completely
STOP TRYING TO CONVINCE YOURSELF I WANT TO BLOW UP AT YOU AND FORCE YOU AWAY
I DON'T HATE YOU

I'M JUST
FUCKING
BUSY

[dizz ✖]

i don't get my mom.
at one point she's hugging me, and praising me, and wiping my tears away;
but then i realize...

she's the one who caused them.[/b]

[haley.]

I CAN'T HELP IT
It's ALWAYS going to be about ME ME ME and it's ALWAYS going to be about how I WANT YOU TO MYSELF and you're ALWAYS going to turn it into how I CAN'T DO THAT and I KNOW THAT and I'M ALWAYS GOING TO KEEP DOING IT.

and you know what, it's funny because you keep telling me that you're the one who's not good enough for me, when you keep doing this. when you keep leaving me.

you're gonna say 'i'm not leaving you' but that's how it's always going to feel.

I don't want, I don't need, I don't care about anybody else. You're the person who's kept by me for damn near a year and you've helped me. And I know it's all selfish when I want to be the dead center of your world but... I would love it if you valued me like i value you.

And it just doesn't seem like you do sometimes...

And this is why I am so worthless.

[dizz ✖]

I know my mother doesn't hate me. Really, I do. I just don't understand her.

xxx

YOU'RE A HUMAN, NOT A PRIZE.
so why do we treat you like one?
why do we kiss your feet? why do we worship you? why do we bow down to you and shower you with love?
i want to say you're an attention whore, but that would be rude and hypocritical considering i do all of the above.
i don't know.

xxx

AND YOU. YOU ARE SO FUCKING FAKE AND I HATE IT. YOU GET SO MUCH ATTENTION WHEN YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR. FAKE FAKE FAKE.

[dizz ✖]

THAT FUCKING HURTS.

and it may not seem like it, but that really got to me. I'M SENSITIVE, OKAY? and i don't know if that was supposed to be funny or if you were just being a douchebag, or if you were trying to reject me but i was trying to be nice.

[✠Kim✝]

That is offensive.
You can't just throw around words like that.

[habu]

^{I don't want to worry. I don't want to complain. I don't want to die.}


IS THIS SERIOUS AND YOU AREN'T TELLING ME BECAUSE YOU DON'T THINK I CAN HANDLE IT?

[dizz ✖]

^{stop fighting. please. it's stupid... and... i don't like it.
and i hate picking sides.}

[haley.]

YOU BOTH
need to not take these little things so seriously.
need to SUCK IT UP with all of this! you fight every day and the next day you're giggling and drawing for each other and the whole shebang!
need to realize that I DO NOT LIKE MY FRIENDS FRIGHTING
should be sure NOT to make sure this drama gets out of control
had better not make me or anyone else pick sides.
NEED TO STOP VENTING ABOUT EACH OTHER LIKE THIS
should know that if you keep venting about people DIRECTLY like that, where they KNOW you're talking about them, I'll delete your posts. spreading DRAMA is NOT what my forum is about.

YOU
need to leave her alone, because I'll tell you right now, she's just generally closer and more important to me than you. I'm sorry, that probably sounds harsh, but that's how it is. DO NOT make her feel bad about this. NOT now. If you get to buddy up and 'defend' someone else like that, I will do the same. Knock it off.

YOU
need to calm down, because you and I both know that you two are always going to keep doing this.
should TELL me these things, WAIT for me so I can make you feel better. You're my best friend for a reason.
should really stop putting hearts and smiley faces in your vents/insults/comebacks/whatever. It does NOT come off as fearful or anything like that. It just makes you look like a giant tool, and I don't want people thinking like that of you.

[__molii ★]

mmmmmmmmmm

go away plz

[dizz ✖]

I'm not stupid.
I know you hate me.
But everyone else doesn't seem to know.
Because all that probably wasn't a joke.
It was probably because you're selfish.

And am I the only person that notices you're fake?
I honestly don't know what people see in you.

I'm not scared of you.

^{All I want is an apology.}

[✠Kim✝]

I need to stop thinking about stuff so much.
THAT HAPPENED FIVE OR MORE MONTHS AGO. WHY DO I STILL THINK ABOUT IT. I JUST WANT IT TO LEAVE MY MIND. BUT IT WONT 'CAUSE IT HURT SO FUCKING MUCH. Mentally AND physically.

HE IS OLD. HE IS NOT CAPABLE OF MEETING ALL OF YOUR NEEDS. So stop screaming at him. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS HIM.

That isn't your real voice. Stop laughing like that, it's such a fake laugh.
DON'T APOLOGIZE TO ME THE NEXT DAY WHEN YOU KNOW YOUR JUST GOING TO DO IT AGAIN.

DAD. NO NOT DAD. FRANK. I HATE YOU. I HOPE YOU DIE. JUST DIE IN JAIL. OR DIE FROM ABUSING DRUGS. I DON'T CARE. JUST DIE.
Why? YOU ABUSED ME WHEN I WAS A BABY. YOU NEVER CARED ABOUT ME. YOU LET MY LITTLE SCAMP RUN AWAY. HE COULD HAVE DIED. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT DOG MEANS TO ME? YOU DON'T PAY CHILD SUPPORT. AHHHHHHHHG.

DON'T TOUCH ME. YOU KNOW I FREAK OUT WHEN PEOPLE TOUCH MY SKIN.
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WHY AM I AFRAID TO JUST CLICK THE BUTTON AND ENTER THE STUPID CHAT. I'VE BEEN THERE MANY TIMES. WHY AM I SO AFRAID YDGHUJFGDYHKlKYFGRYDHUJIK

I need sleep.
Lots and lots of sleep.

|:C

[dizz ✖]

Everytime I see you sad or angry, it makes me sad or angry.
It makes me want to punch the crap out of whoever made you sad or angry.
It makes me want to run over to where you live, hug you, love you, cry with you, then take you home with me where you won't be sad or angry.
But I fear you won't want

[/i] me to do that, because you don't feel the same way.
You mean so much to me, but I guess I just suck at showing it.
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