The Vent Thread

[haley.]

I.
Wha.
Huh. OK.

Except, no, I'm tired of opening my mouth to protest and then just saying, "...Nevermind. OK." I'm such a fucking doormat.
AND HERE I AM, ALL CHIPPER AND HAPPY AND GEEZ, I DON'T FEEL DEPRESSED FOR ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE AND
what the fuck
what the fuck, self.

I probably do this to myself. If I wanted to, I could've made it so that I was not here. I could've made myself out to be... not this kind of person but...

Ha. Hahaha, fuck.

[habu]

^{Uh, so}

You never pay attention to me when I want you to, then wonder why I push you away out of spite.

WTF MOM.

[haley.]

UGH FUCK FUCK YOU
You're just a... you're just A HUGE BITCH. I have ranted about you time and time again and I just don't have anymore ENERGY to talk about the reasons WHY you're a huge bitch but you ARE. You are a terrible, terrible fucking mother because as high-and-mighty as you feel, you don't - you NEVER make ANY effort.

AND THIS RELIGIOUS BULLSHIT IS PISSING ME OFF.

AND ALSO GOSH YOU ARE CUTE <3

^{woah what is that last part doing in this thread}

[haley.]

OK, you know what. Fuck it. I have spared you're feelings... too many times. I want to vent from the heart.

I'm better than you.
I'm an all around nicer person, I sure as hell am more tactful than you, I don't act like a little brat all the time, I don't pretend my problems aren't there, and goddammit, I am infinitely more mature than you.

I stopped talking to you for several reasons. For one, I wasn't... helping you. I wasn't doing any good for you. I let myself be your crutch for ages and you never changed and I knew it was time to stop because I was tired of dealing with it. I was alone by myself constantly, and I LET YOU be that close to me and it just... didn't work, OK? I wasn't happy, and you were happy, I guess, but it wasn't right because... it just wasn't. Neither of us were really benefiting from it. And secondly, I got tired of not being happy for other people. So I stopped, and look, I'm happy. I'm happy. Do you know how good it feels to say that and mean it?

I'm so sick of... being modest. Just - fuck it, and fuck you. I say, "grow up," because people who don't grow up get hurt, and I don't want that for you, Milly. I do want you to be happy. But quite frankly, I don't like you enough to make sure you're happy. You're not a very likable person. In fact, you're sort of an immature bitch. You act like my little sister, taking a funny thing and running it into the ground and screaming about it loudly to anyone who will listen. Which is pretty much your twitter account. I mean, for God's sake, I know you're all about instant gratification but do you THINK before you speak/type? EVER?

Uh, since when is having no friends funny? I'm sorry, do you like sitting at home on the fucking internet all day, talking to only a handful of people, only when you are in the same fandom as them? That's not friendship, Milly, that's selfishness. Because the only thing they want, and you want, is to talk about that fandom. That's it. People are selfish, you are selfish. You are going to waste you're life sitting in front of the computer, bitching to your mother and sister when they can't have it because, oh no, you can't read your porn! Because gay porn is all that matters, yeah? Let me be frank - you have no friends and no one wants to hang out with you. And this is something you are just LOLing at and sticking y u mad to? Do you think you're cute? You're not.

I am... prying myself away from the internet. Because even though I love tumblr, love all my friends, love a lot of things about it, I know what's best for myself. I mean jesus christ, you are almost 16 years old and the only thing you know how to do is navigate a kink meme.

But, whatever. Do what you want. Just don't think I will go easy on you from now on, because I won't. If you want to be a bitch, I will be a bitch right back. And you can tweet about it all you want.

[habu]

I hope you know

^{I thought we were connected somehow}

but you and her?

It's like no one else exists when you guys are going back and forth

^{but then again}

I keep forgetting I mean less to you than you do to me

[haley.]

i am
just
fuck
fuck fuck fuck

yeah, i guess i'm sad but whatever i don't... it doesn't matter, because we didn't click like you and her did so it's ok, i guess, seriously, i'm a little upset, but for other reasons, i am happy, because fuck sky, i just fucking want you to be happy, that's all that matters.

i'm just
really tired of like
being alone.

i knew from the git-go that even if we DID manage to try this whole relationship thing again, it wouldn't last long. it just makes me sad because i'm really sick of feeling lonely all the time.
i mean shit, the only boys that 'like' me are half-autistic fucks and it's WEIRD
it just isn't
i just

UGH, FUCK

[✠Kim✝]

Mother,
you want to know why I never come to you for help or when I'm upset? It's because you don't seem to care. What is screaming and yelling going to do? I am sensitive and emotional and you just make it worse. I come to you because you tell me to come to you when something is wrong. You're my Mother. I expect you to try and atleast make me feel better, not get mad.
Thank you very much, I feel absolutely terrible about myself now.

[habu]

^{I love you so much, but your annoying little fantasies are starting to ruin this for me.}

PS, periods suck. Fuck cramps. Fuck menstruation. Fuck babies for being the only way a girl my age can NOT have a period.

[habu]

I haven't cried for a fandom in a long, long time.

But Hussie, I swear, if you kill Tavros - really, truly kill him - I will not only cry, but I don't think I will be able to respect you anymore. At least, never as much.

^{He is a character, but I love him a LOT. And he doesn't deserve any of the fucking shit he gets. I don't know how you expect us to find this funny, if you do at all, but I hope, for your sake, you're planning to do something that won't have people like me wanting to fucking cry.}

[haley.]

Hey, so, fuck you.

Don't talk to ME about what a terrible daughter I am, about how untrustworthy and ungrateful I am, when you don't know the first thing about being a mother. You don't know HOW to act like a mother. The only thing you can do is be a teenager, be a girlfriend. I DON'T NEED A FUCKING SISTER, I DON'T NEED A 'GIRLFRIEND' YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT, ALL I EVER FUCKING WANTED FROM YOU WAS A MOTHER, I NEVER ASKED FOR ANYTHING ELSE.

WHEN THE FUCK DO I EVER ASK FOR ANYTHING PERIOD? EVER? NEVER, IS THE CORRECT ANSWER. I NEVER ASK, "HEY, DID YOU GET ME ANYTHING?" WHEN YOU COME HOME WITH MOUNDS OF SHIT FOR YOURSELF. I NEVER ASK, "CAN I COME WITH YOU?" WHEN YOU GUSSY YOURSELF UP AND TAKE DAMIEN OUT TO BUY YOU FOOD AND USELESS SHIT YOU DON'T NEED. I NEVER ASK, "HEY, CAN YOU SHUT UP?" WHEN YOU SERIOUSLY FUCKING NEED TO.

and damien, shut the f u c k up, seriously. you are nice. but STOP being my moms lapdog and STOP trying to be so close to me WHEN YOU ARE STILL NEW HERE AND IT IS FUCKING WEIRD

and hahahahahah you can call me a liar and whatever you want but the fact remains at least i will never be the bitch that you are
look at me i'm on the internet!!!!!!!

[habu]

ONCE AGAIN MY DIGESTIVE SYSTEM HAS TURNED TO SHIT

hey body could you like
work normally for once

that would be pretty cool

[jadedcobrah]

I like how the aptly nicknamed "Tinychat Bros" seem to really like saying that a lot of pairings I happen to like make no logical sense, that they have never been implied, or otherwise shouldn't be shipped.

Fuck you. Even if you don't like the pairing that's just so RUDE. I mean, fuck. I hate a lot of pairings YOU GUYS like but you don't see me all like, HA HA HA THAT SHIT MAKES NO SENSE YOU GUYS ARE RETARDS.

Maybe it's the fact I don't go out of my way to prove how well these pairings could work, how I see them happening or why, or maybe that I haven't previously expressed my interest in these pairings in a way that you would notice and see. You probably wouldn't have said a damn thing if you knew that I liked these pairings, or that I'm incredibly fucking defensive over EVERYTHING I like. Even when I don't like something you guys do I'm pretty chill with it. I don't freak out all, GOD THAT PAIRING MAKES NO SENSE. Or GOD THAT SHOW IS SO FUCKING STUPID. Or THAT BAND IS THE WORST.

No, I lay the fuck back and I take all of that shit you talk.
Oh? You hate Justin Bieber? I never asked. It was never relevant. Why the fuck are you bashing someone you've never met so intensely? Oh? The pairing I like makes no logical sense? Don't care. It doesn't matter. Ohh? I LIKE A SHOW YOU HATE? COOL FUCKING STORY BRO.

I mean, goddamn. I'm quiet about it and I let it go easily but the more it happens the harder it is for me to just let it go. Yeah, you're entitled to your opinion! You don't have to like every pairing that exists or every pairing that I happen to ship. I just really don't want you to go on to say that the pairings I like make no logical sense. Okay, heres the thing. If they don't make logical sense, and I ship it, then I probably already know. You don't need to point it out to me. I am not stupid.

[haley.]

posting in this thread just because hot damn jade <3

G P O Y

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[habu]

OH MY GOD.

Stridercest?

Please just get the FUCK. OUT.

<sup>God, I hate that I hate it, I honestly do- my friends all seem to like it or be OK with it or at least Alexa does, and I love her and admire her a lot but oh my GOD, it fucking DISGUSTS ME. I mean, this fandom is full of sick bastards, I get that. I fucking understand that, but for the most part it seems like it's kept under wraps. Most of the people in HS fandom are sweet, original, funny, and nice.

But why is THIS becoming popular? For the love of god, the one thing I can't even begin to stand is incest, and now I fucking see it EVERYWHERE. And as if that weren't bad enough, it's like two FUCKING LEVELS. Bro is technically his dad and socially his brother... that's like double fucking taboo and it makes my skin crawl. I FREAK OUT because I know I'm never going to be OK with it, but I kind of wish I was at least apathetic because then I wouldn't be so horrified whenever it pops up on my dash, but then if I WAS OK with it, then jesus, what if my actual fucking, like... MORALS start being blurred?

I just hate it so much, it disgusts me and it rubs me the wrong way and fuck I wish it would just GO AWAY FOREVER and I feel like a fucking TERRIBLE FRIEND for saying this but JESUS FUCKING CHRIST PLEASE GET OUT OF MY FANDOM.</sup>

[habu]

^{why am i so}

fucking

stupid?