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Post by haley. on Jan 20, 2010 20:48:33 GMT -5
I'M SICK OF BEING SO DAMN SELFISH ALL THE TIME!
...I can't fucking do anything... |
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Post by habu on Jan 21, 2010 13:50:45 GMT -5
They say the ones who are always smiling are hiding the most pain. |
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Post by haley. on Jan 21, 2010 18:38:19 GMT -5
no, i can't stop things from changing.
But I feel like something's changed and it's pissing me off.
Tell me how to act, I'll act that way. Tell me what I can do to make this less awkward and fucking STUPID and I'll do it.
HELP ME
I'm so fucking... not amused with myself. Acting like I'm funny or creative or important or some stupid shit like that.
No fucking wonder Bailey left me.
I think I need to cry.
And why am I still... 'venting'? Fuck.
i want to know what's wrong with me. |
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Post by ✠Kim✝ on Jan 21, 2010 21:45:16 GMT -5
Why do I have to wait? They never have to wait.
That's not fair.
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Post by haley. on Jan 22, 2010 17:45:38 GMT -5
you're talking to her, i bet, because i've made you upset.
i guess i'm learning, or something.
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OH MY GOD, PLEASE STOP.
SERIOUSLY, IT'S HARD TO BALANCE EVERYTHING AND STILL TALK TO THESE TWO PEOPLE - WHO I'VE KNOWN FOR A YEAR AND HAVE... A DUTY TO TALK TO. IT'S HARD TO BALANCE THEM AND ALL THIS SHIT AND MY OWN FUCKING PROBLEMS THAT I DON'T TELL ANYONE //BUT// SAID TWO PEOPLE, BECAUSE THEY ARE THE PEOPLE CLOSEST TO ME.
I have no energy, to time to sit still. I hardly have time to call Ariel BECAUSE I'VE BEEN BUSY. understand that you i don't tell you i love you CONSTANTLY because i figure you already KNOW. It's not as if you don't mean anything to me. I just wish you wouldn't OVERTHINK everything I do. No offense but... let me worry about what I do and my own problems, OK?
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Post by ✠Kim✝ on Jan 22, 2010 19:20:12 GMT -5
Learn to say things,
DIRECTLY TO ME.
It just makes the problem worse if you don't.
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Post by __molii ★ on Jan 23, 2010 11:22:37 GMT -5
I HOPE YOU'RE FUCKING HAPPY NOW, BITCH
YOU'RE REALLY GREAT AT SCARING PEOPLE AWAY AND BEING AN ASS, YOU SHOULD WIN AN AWARD
OH AND HEY GUYS, I WANNA BE AN ADMIN SO I DON'T HAVE TO USE MY NON-EXISTENT BRAIN TO WIN MY ARGUMENTS!!!!1111
FUCKING
BITCH
CAN'T YOU, LIKE, I DON'T KNOW... GO TO HELL? DIE? DISAPPEAR?! |
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Post by haley. on Jan 23, 2010 13:57:44 GMT -5
There is absolutely NO REASON to overreact like this.
I hate to say I told you so, but...
I TOLD YOU SO
yeah, you had friends there. You had friends, uh, RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU? MAYBE IF YOU WEREN'T SO BUSY TRYING TO FIT IN AND LETTING THOSE BASTARDS INSULT YOU AND TALK ABOUT YOU BEHIND YOU'RE BACK, WHEN YOU SHOULD'VE BEEN TAKING MY ADVICE ABOUT NOT GETTING INTO IT, YOU WOULDN'T BE HERE. I TOLD YOU IT WAS A BAD IDEA. I ALWAYS HAVE YOU'RE BEST INTENTIONS AT HEART. I DON'T KNOW WHY THE FUCK YOU DIDN'T LISTEN TO ME.
DON'T YOU THINK //WE// WOULD'VE LIKED TO BE YOUR FRIEND? OR ARE WE JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH?
You act like I DON'T put you at the dead center of my world sometime. You seem to think I DON'T rethink everything I do for your sake. Or maybe you just don't know how I lay myself in front of you for you to do whatever you want with, or always take your side, or try my damnedest to make room to talk to you and rp with you. I get jealous when you talk to people for a reason, I plan my life AROUND YOU and sometimes you don't even notice... |
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Post by ✠Kim✝ on Jan 23, 2010 15:23:09 GMT -5
That's kind of funny.
I do that to you.
But you never notice.
Are you ever going to understand
You mean more to me than anyone?
goddamn
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Post by ✠Kim✝ on Jan 24, 2010 15:12:08 GMT -5
Now that is just stupid.
Just because one of your friends doesn't like it anymore, doesn't mean you have to dislike it too. You guys should like what you want to like.
It's a fucking anime/manga or whatever!!!
You shouldn't be disappointed if one of your friends still likes it. That just shows that your a bad friend. Why don't you like it anyway? Because you found something else you like better? YOU KNOW YOU CAN LIKE MORE THAN ONE THING AT A TIME. |
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Post by ✠Kim✝ on Jan 24, 2010 19:49:16 GMT -5
NO
NO!
NONONONO!!!
FUCK YOU FIREFOX
FUCK. YOU.
I DIDNT EVEN GET TO SAVE THAT FUCKING CONVERSATION
FUCCCK YOUUU!!!!
THAT PERSON WAS AMAZING.
FUCKING. AMAZING.
I WANTED HER E-MAIL
BUT NO.
YOU HAD TO CRASH!
Eh, wait for me my love! I shall search for you. Even if it takes forever. ;n;
/emos |
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Post by ✠Kim✝ on Jan 25, 2010 23:42:03 GMT -5
Geh.
I'm so worried about you.
Like, you don't understand how worried I am.
But I don't know why I'm worried.
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Post by haley. on Jan 26, 2010 22:30:19 GMT -5
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
I can't even listen to that song anymore because it was supposedly 'our song.' Do you have any idea how much that meant to me? That-- That we had a fucking song? That there were songs that made you think of me?
I loved that song. And now I can't... listen to it without crying.
I wish someone would come along and just... pick me back up and piece me back together again.
but how selfish is that? |
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Post by haley. on Jan 28, 2010 7:20:10 GMT -5
No. No, I don't MIND that I've been asking this of you for, mm, a while, and you've always said, no it's stupid. But as soon as they do it, you have to get one. And you... prevent me from looking at them?
Is it because I'm not as popular as them? If my art was better, if I talked like them, would that fix this problem?
And... those two sentences were like... the same. One for me, one for... her. It fucking means a lot to me, and I don't go around saying it unless I REALLY DO KNOW YOU AND LOVE YOU.
Fuck, nevermind.
IF THEY STARTED USING LIVEJOURNAL, YOU WOULD BE ON IT WITH REGULAR UPDATES, TALKING LIKE THEM, IN A HEARTBEAT.
God, you always do this... |
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Post by __molii ★ on Jan 28, 2010 10:19:45 GMT -5
holy shit.
do you really don't trust me like that? to think i'd do that?
seriously. that hurts. |
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