The Vent Thread

[__molii ★]

i'm not mature enough, guys
i need to grow up
i need to stop being annoying and clingy and obsessive

i need to be a fucking grown up adult

and i'm 14

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GREAT LOGIC, ISN'T IT? TOTALLY AND COMPLETELY LOGICAL

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[✠Kim✝]

WHY ARE YOU SO FULL OF YOURSELF?
SHUT. UP.

[✠Kim✝]

You know, I really love getting ignored. It's such a GREAT feeling.
/sarcasm

FUCK NO. YOU KNOW I HATE GETTING IGNORED.

STOP
FUCKING
IGNORING
ME

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[haley.]

fucking january second.

[habu]

I LOOK LIKE A LESBIAN.



Just when I thought I couldn't get any less feminine.

[haley.]

OK, SHUT THE FUCK UP
I USED TO HAVE ALL THIS SYMPATHY FOR YOU UNTIL I GOT TO SEE IT FOR MY SELF
STOP BITCHING ABOUT THE SAME FUCKING THING

WHINING AND MOANING ABOUT IT IS NOT GOING TO MAKE THE PROBLEM GO AWAY

I'M SO SICK OF HAVING TO BE NICE TO YOU WHEN YOU GET LIKE THIS
SERIOUSLY, THE LEAST YOU COULD DO IS, I DON'T KNOW, FACE YOUR PROBLEMS?

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I WILL NEVER GET OVER BAILEY HARRIS, WHY THE FUCK AM I TRYING

FUCK

I MET HER ON JANUARY SECOND 2009

[✠Kim✝]

Well. EXCUSE ME FOR
FEELING
LIKE
THIS.
:C

[haley.]

THIS, ladies and gents, is what the vent thread is for. To fucking vent and feel good afterward. I hope this will make me feel better, after I get this off my chest.

KIM.
YOU WERE NEVER MY REPLACEMENT FOR BAILEY.
I DO NOT AND DID NOT LATCH ONTO YOU BECAUSE I NEEDED SOMEONE TO FILL HER ROLE.
I WAS IN LOVE WITH BAILEY. I GOT JEALOUS OF PEOPLE TALKING WITH YOU, BECAUSE THE WAY YOU VALUED ME GOT TO MY HEAD, AND I TRIED SO FUCKING HARD TO REPLACE BAILEY WITH YOU, AND IT DIDN'T WORK. I DON'T KNOW WHY I TRIED, I WAS DESPERATE, YOU GET DESPERATE WHEN SHIT LIKE THAT HAPPENS.

I felt like at the smallest thing, I'd make you cry or something. I'd break your heart. I wouldn't wish that on anyone, Kim. But this... this has to STOP.

YOU ARE MY FRIEND, KIMBERLY CUETO. YOU MEAN SOMETHING, I PROMISE YOU YOU DO.
But... but thinking of me as this... someone who can just make things better for you if you just talk to them is not... is not healthy. You wanna know the truth?
You're suffocating me.
Which is why I talk to Habu and Jaded. Because I value them like I value you AND THEY DO NOT SUFFOCATE ME.
I haven't told you any of this because I know I'll just make you cry. But this is... this life! This is moving on!

God, You don't know how terrible I feel and how sorry I am.

But I can't stop LAYING myself on the floor for EVERYONE to walk on. I cannot be there for EVERYONE. There's a difference between being kind of selfless and putting people before yourself, and letting people walk all over you. I SHOULD KNOW, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT I DID, AND NONE OF MY CLOSE, CLOSE FRIENDSHIPS WORKED OUT.

IT DIDN'T WORK OUT WITH KELSEY, KIMMEY, OR BAILEY, IT WILL NOT WORK OUT WITH YOU, KIM.

I want you to find someone who fucking GETS you, who... who can RELATE to you like you WANT me to. You can't just... expect me to fill you in where I had Bailey, or put you ABOVE All these people and value you you MORE, and I do not expect that of you.

What... Whatever I am to you, I am flattered, and I love you all the same, but... It's not healthy. Molii got MAD at you that time because she KNEW you were suffocating me, with constant notes asking me if I was OK or if I wanted to talk, even though I said NO everytime, and 'I want to talk to Haley' EVERYWHERE. So she exploded. I saw it, I told her she would hurt your feelings, and she stopped. I don't want to hurt your feelings, Kim.

I am terrible, and selfish, and a bitch, I know. But I NEEDED to say this.

PLEASE LET ME BREATHE

[haley.]

i will fix this.

hopefully.

[habu]

<sup>I guess I can only fake it for so long, and pretend to be something I'm not. There's really only one person who will ever understand me, and for that reason, I guess.....
...

It's easy to say that like it's funny or a compliment but the way that other people would say it, or the way I would say it to myself is always so harsh.


I'll always be a</sup> FREAK.

[habu]

^{FUCK, couldn't you at least just PRETEND to care?}

[✠Kim✝]

Ashley, why did you change so suddenly. You were my best friend ever since first grade and you.. you just changed. All because one of the popular ass-holes labeled you. We.. shared so many things in common. I remember when we discovered how we could make our names the exact same. That was the day before you changed. Now look at you. You're one of them. One of those nasty idiots.
Ashley Rose O'Brien. I am very, disappointed in you.
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Oh my god. Dude. Okay. If I could kill you right now, I would. I don't know why. It's just your face pisses me off so much. You are like the ugliest thing I have ever seen. Stop thinking your so fucking cool. Your not. You think you have a flip in your hair, which you odviously don't. And don't you dare go calling yourself emo again. It's fucking retarded. You aren't a soup can. I swear you are the fucking most immature poser I have ever met. Why do I have to even know you? I hope you diiiie.

[haley.]

......

...

...when we're apart whatever are you thinking of?

if this what i call home, why does it feel so alone?

so tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?

all the time. all the time...

It will always be one step forward and three steps back.
please come prove me wrong.
please

[haley.]

Just... fucking stop it.

You know I run out of sympathy fast. You're scared and skiddish attitude is beginning to piss me off. You are 15 years old, and should know when and when to not open your mouth.

And please stop saying the same goddamn thing over and over when you KNOW no one likes it and you KNOW you shouldn't say it, and saying you don't know why you keep doing it doesn't make it OK for you to KEEP. DOING IT.

[✠Kim✝]

JESUS CHRIIIIIIIIIIIST
I am not 5 years old! I am perfectly capable of cutting a bagel. What the hellllll. If I do accidentally cut myself with the knife then tough shit. I am KIM. I am always getting hurt. I can handle it. B(